I want to finish this thing, but I don’t want to write. Writing is hard and I am lazy. I am ashamed of my laziness, and regret my wasted time. Then something clicks and I sit down to work. I pour through notes, I type, I scrap together a few thoughts that will hold up in a final draft. Soon, my block of time expires and I have to get my kid from her crib, make dinner, do laundry, whatever. I think about how hard I worked in that chunk of time and how little there is to show for it. There is still nothing I can send my committee.
Quotes from other writers have been helpful. They reinforce what I already know. Just sit down and do it. Just sit down and do it, already. This one calmed me down this morning:
― Anne Lamott, Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life